a tangled tree

i don’t believe feelings ever leave us.

 once an emotion is felt, it imprints itself on our life through our memories. on the very definition of who we are.

at my will, i can recall any sensation that i have ever experienced.

and occasionally, one will invite itself into my present without permission.

but nevertheless, our feelings never fade.

sure, they might be less potent as they occupy less of our time.

but they are never forgettable.

somewhere, in my heart, a moment that was perfect, will always remain just as perfect.

and just as i will always be sad for the things that brought me hurt, i will always love those that i have loved

and in some ways, this reality forces us to be prisoners.

forever bound to our past.

but hopefully in others, this understanding provides unlimited wealth. with a vast array of memories within which to rejoice at any moment.

but right now, while i appreciate knowing that i have loved. part of me crumbles every time i remember each loss.

no matter how skilled we become at letting go of our hope, our sadness will always exist somewhere in our hearts.

and no matter how much time has passed, in some dark crevice of my soul will lie each smile and tear that ive attached to your memory.